how time flies. how i have changed

today is SPH's 25th anniversary. as usual we have the top of the roof event a monthly gathering for all SPH's staffs.


i still remembered the first time that i took part was in November 2008. I went for a course induction. i was still new to this place.


i still remembered i was happily holding to a Champagne glass, most prob having my 4th glasses of Champagne? wanted so much to stop drinking, but random colleagues kept asking me to drink. i felt bad to decline and of course, i had my my fair share of attention.


was i happy? i can't remember actually.


it was then, i noticed this guy from far. very good looking and he has a nice smile. but who cares. haha. i was just having fun as a newbee in this big company. i noticed that he looked at me from time to time as well. but really, it didn't bother me much. i was more concerned about my champagne.


he came over. he spoke to me. he asked if i was his college mate. haha. obviously not. we chatted for hours, exchanged numbers. he was really cute and smart. a sph sponsored scholar who went all the way to england. yes, he is rich too.


but did i care? the answer was pretty obvious. i dont't give a damn. why? most prob at that point of time, i already had someone in mind. someone whom i begin to admire more and more for his determination, his family orientated character, his smiles, his concentration, his ability to make me laugh every night after a tough day at work.


why am i blogging this now? i also don't know. most prob i needed somewhere to let my feelings out.


today is the same old SPH's event.


guess what am i doing?


took a packet of chicken rice and hurried to my desk to eat all alone.


i don't wanna mingle anymore. i don't like crowds. i don't like noise.


i am still trying to find that inner peace.


i am glad that ah chek is alright. the scan is perfectly fine. :)